This morning Caiden and I were in the bathroom brushing our
teeth and washing our face when he brought up a touchy subject for me. He said,
“Mommy you have a lot of bumps on your face.” I have always had trouble with acne
and no matter how old you get it still bothers you. We are taught early on that
image is a very important aspect of life. We have to look nice, dress nice, act
nice, talk nice just to be accepted by others. I have dealt with my fair share
of bullies both children and adults, so there is a reason for my insecurities.
I can deal with my insecurities a lot better now than I did when I was younger.
Rick tells me every day I am beautiful. I know I am beautiful because God
created me and he makes no mistakes in his creations; however, our human
insecurities sometimes cloud our judgments. Anyway this morning, I told Caiden,
“I know mommy has a ton of bumps and it makes me look ugly.” He replied, “Not
to me.” Those 3 little words put me on cloud nine. He sees me as a beautiful
mommy and no acne scar or bump can take that away from me. He is just like his
dad. They are blind to the obvious signs that others and myself see as
imperfections. All they see is the true me and I need to be reminded of that.
He made me smile so big today just by making me see how beautiful I am by
saying 3 little words. He is a sweetheart and I hope that society never changes
him. Caiden thank you for loving mommy so much. You are my Bubby and I will
always love you.
